How to strike the balance?

The past one week has been torturing for my whole family. Since last Wed, 6 June, Edan start to fall sick ... fever hitting 40.5 degrees ... severe cough and totally not eating for 3 - 4 days. It was really worrying, he just sleep through the days and nights, only drinking a few drops of water ...

We sent him to docs 5 times ... clinics, westpoint hospital and finally twice to KK ... damn, nothing seems to work, nearly wanted to admit him ...

And, we seek divine help, burn tailisman pray and checked(yes, I know I'm Catholic, but if you are in my situation you will understand ... ), luckily as of yesterday, he's nearly back to normal le, eating playing and screaming! Gosh, how I miss his "mum mum" ... now what's missing significantly is his weight ba ...

The aftermath of all these, (actually I've been feeling these thru-out), during the whole process, I've been so busy with my work that I can't even take a day off to look after him myself! The same speaks for my wife! It really make me wonder how well our baby-policy will work ... the rulers just ask people to go and have more baby ... of course I know the blissful feeling, the joy and happiness bring about with familes ... but what's the use if you create everything but you are just not there for them when they need you most!?

No matter what the picture is painted or what the situation is, I know deep in my heart ... that the current situation I'm in shall not be one that should last too long ... it must be changed.

Call me lack of ambition or whatever you want, for I know no matter how hard I work, how many hours I spend everyday ... even 24x7, I will not be getting those millions in salary that our owners get...(what you mean by owners? ... of course, we are all cows ... cash-cows ... work and work for the progress of the economy and they just want us to keep eating less to stay competitive ... haha!)

God bless all kids out there be happy and healthy! :)